dreaming of the sky

I hate my blog.

2009-03-19T01:10:00.002+09:00

It reminds me of what an astounding failure I am sometimes.

I'm back home, I don't know what I'm meant to be doing, aside from finding Jobs.
I feel horrible with myself, just so useless and non-applicable to life, I cut my hair, not because I wanted to, or was even ready to (with my self) but because I need a job and an income.

Oh, and I feel stupid about somebody special, but he leaves tomorrow I think, and I felt so hideous with myself I couldn't even consider going to his going-away party.

I think it's laughable that some people have this impression that I'm assertive and can take life by the horns, because when I look at my life, myself in a mirror, that's the last I see.

2009-02-03T14:50:00.001+09:00

Job applications!

I'm applying at a Kindergarten for a Childcare Assistant position bahaha, me with kids.

Ohhh how desperate times call for the desperate measures!

pt. III

2009-02-02T17:25:00.004+09:00

The return to Darwin!

Well, I'm back now, it's a bit odd to be honest, I'm still scrambling to gather all my shit together, Job prospects, University....Living with Mum haha.

From all that i can gather, i did excellent in the interview!
I'd spoken to my ACTU contact in Perth, Dave Garland (used to work at the CSA) and from what he said, I've come out pegged with another for the most impressive applicant.

That doesn't seem to be helping them make a decision on calling me or not, which is sending me 'round the bend.

Aside from that, I'm applying for the bridging course here in Darwin at CDU!
Unfortunately, my initial test results for the programme fit me in between the orientation and the preparation programmes.

Meaning I scored well above (over 90%) on the literacy aspect, but ranked only 12% on the numeracy side.

The woman who called me about the results is trying to get me to re-do the test, but honestly, my maths is crap, it's not going to get better.

I'm looking at a Batc. Arts in Asian Studies or a Dip. Languages, something that can take me away from this godforsaken country!
However, when browsing today, I saw a Bachelor in Humanitarian & Community Services, so that's always a possibility....

I'm off now, this stuff is good to get off the chest, but it's pretty stressful and depressing never the less :(

James

Happy Yess

2009-01-31T10:24:00.000+09:00

Last night,
Stirfry Music!

Australia Day

2009-01-27T20:00:00.001+09:00

Caught up with Kat & Seranna at the Water Ski Club! Hurrah!

Battling the elements in the quest to roll!

Christmas Day

2008-12-27T21:25:00.000+09:00

Christmas Day in Perth.

Too many drinks and too many dramas with the family.

Malaysia

2008-11-04T14:47:00.003+09:00

I'm in Malaysia at the moment, got in yesterday mid-day, after a night + morning in Singapore (SHITAPORE!) haha
Met up with a friend from online, Alven, just chilled around town and looked at some malls, had shisha and dinner, had a beer at a beach cafe.

There's not much to do in Johor Bahru (where i am at the moment) but it's still an interesting place, I'll be checking out the Museum + Mosques soon.

The guest-house I'm staying at is cheap, reaaaaally cheap, but cool at the same time, It's inhabited by a Hakiri, the owner and his wife,
They've about 6 cats and 6 chickens (roosters woke me up this morning, at 5am, fuckers!) and i bunk with a 20 y.o swede called sasha, and a 56 y.o singaporean guy.

Sweet as.

Update on Darwin!

2008-03-25T13:04:00.002+09:00

I'm now residing in Darwin for longer than expected, made the decision on Sunday!

I've had to apply for jobs practically everyday since, in between helping mum organise her units,
It's been pretty hands on since i arrived, I've applied to Coles and Woolworths so far,
Have applications for Bakers Delight and Birch and Carrol Cinemas (Greater Union) filled out.

And i've just printed out a handful of resumes at the library just then, in between getting trapped in a ridiculous tropical terrential downfall hahaha.

Well, i'm off to prove my worth (or lack of) to Darwin society, starting at Casuarina Shopping Centre!
Whoopee.

James

Loooong Time no Update!

2008-03-23T09:58:00.001+09:00

Well, here it is! A looong time since an update :)

I'm here in Darwin (again!) visiting mother dearest, i'm enjoying it somewhat, it's a pretty different atmosphere up here...
I'm meant to leave on Tuesday the 25th, but i'm thinking about holding back a little and getting a job up here,
Mum doesn't seem to mind that much, but i'll update on that later!

Return of James ;]

2007-10-31T20:19:00.000+09:00

I'm back, fear not...

Darwin was ok, it was odd not knowing anybody there, and dealing with mum, sheesh!
I hung out at a backpackers for a few days, i couldn't hack staying in the house,
Meet some awesome peepz at the backpackers, got maggotted most of the time, nice german + french peoples there ;)

That's me and daniel on a 'snapping crocodile' tour along the Adelaide River.
I met a really nice boy called Grey up there, i'll be visiting him again next year :)

Back in Perth, seems like i didn't even go away, feeling claustrophobic already;
Started my Esperanto Course today :)

Hopefully that'll keep me occupied for the time being whilst i look for a job.

Darwin...

2007-10-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

I'll be fucking off tomorrow, nice and early, 12.30pm.
Going to arrive back on the 28th ;]

I've been feeling kind of shit lately, between unemployment, debt, and my friends, i'm not sure where i'm meant to have my head.

I'm lonely when i'm surrounded by my friends....
I get this feeling that they're secretly laughing deep down, and that they don't really find me half as interesting as they put out.
It's probably all just in my head, but i need a break, a long one, away from a lot of people :|

The Lorax, Dr. Seuss ;]

2007-09-26T23:27:00.001+08:00

The Lorax, Dr. Seuss.

Watch this movie, it's hilarious!

Earthdance 2007 - Perth, WA

2007-09-26T10:23:00.001+08:00

Earthdance, 2007, was awesome!
I'm still in shock from it, and it was like, 2 weeks ago kekeke.

I've just gotten my photo's developed, they turned out a bit dodgy, just because it was the first time i'd used the camera.
Once uploaded to the computer, they looked a bit better, the one above, the exposure was a bit overboard -
Luckily the scanner registered it as a b&w because of the white balance ;]

Anyways, i'm chilling at home, about to clean up my room.

James xo

Fuckbuddies: Yay or Nay?

2007-09-06T17:18:00.000+08:00

I've found a fairly interesting discussion on 'fuckbuddies' in the hack archives;
For those who've been living in Somalia for the past 15 years, a fuckbuddy = sexualised friendship.

This is the link, Triple J - Hack - Fuckbuddies
It's not too big, ~12mb, but it's well worth the time and attention.

Personally,
I've never been that partial to fuckbuddies, i've had my fare share, but something always fucks up.
Usually it's a culmination of:

Becoming too involved

This is classic for me, i just become involved, it's something i just do -
It's kind of shitty, because for the most part, i just want a bit of fun, but every now and then, it's not enough.

2. Things get a bit funky

It becomes awkward, you start getting uncomfortable when both parties are together in a social situation,
It's usually because i go for guys who are pussies, and i tend to build rapport with that.

3. Losing interest in the whole she-bam

Eh, it happens right?
Things get boring, it's all the same, they just don't 'tickle your fancy' anymore.
It's all a fucking yawn.

Alternatively, i could just be a monogamous prude, but let's hope not.

Dateline: Stop Bush Coalition, APEC.

2007-09-06T15:07:00.001+08:00

YouTube - APEC in Australia - Stop Bush Coalition Pt 1

YouTube - APEC in Australia - Stop Bush Coalition Pt 2

It's a disgusting attack on all our civil liberties, fucking disgusting.