I hate my blog.

It reminds me of what an astounding failure I am sometimes.

I'm back home, I don't know what I'm meant to be doing, aside from finding Jobs.
I feel horrible with myself, just so useless and non-applicable to life, I cut my hair, not because I wanted to, or was even ready to (with my self) but because I need a job and an income.

Oh, and I feel stupid about somebody special, but he leaves tomorrow I think, and I felt so hideous with myself I couldn't even consider going to his going-away party.

I think it's laughable that some people have this impression that I'm assertive and can take life by the horns, because when I look at my life, myself in a mirror, that's the last I see.

Job applications!

I'm applying at a Kindergarten for a Childcare Assistant position bahaha, me with kids.


Ohhh how desperate times call for the desperate measures!

pt. III

The return to Darwin!

Well, I'm back now, it's a bit odd to be honest, I'm still scrambling to gather all my shit together, Job prospects, University....Living with Mum haha.

From all that i can gather, i did excellent in the interview!
I'd spoken to my ACTU contact in Perth, Dave Garland (used to work at the CSA) and from what he said, I've come out pegged with another for the most impressive applicant.

That doesn't seem to be helping them make a decision on calling me or not, which is sending me 'round the bend.


Aside from that, I'm applying for the bridging course here in Darwin at CDU!
Unfortunately, my initial test results for the programme fit me in between the orientation and the preparation programmes.

Meaning I scored well above (over 90%) on the literacy aspect, but ranked only 12% on the numeracy side.

The woman who called me about the results is trying to get me to re-do the test, but honestly, my maths is crap, it's not going to get better.


I'm looking at a Batc. Arts in Asian Studies or a Dip. Languages, something that can take me away from this godforsaken country!
However, when browsing today, I saw a Bachelor in Humanitarian & Community Services, so that's always a possibility....




I'm off now, this stuff is good to get off the chest, but it's pretty stressful and depressing never the less :(

James

Happy Yess

Last night,
Stirfry Music!

Australia Day

Caught up with Kat & Seranna at the Water Ski Club! Hurrah!


Battling the elements in the quest to roll!

Christmas Day

Christmas Day in Perth.

Too many drinks and too many dramas with the family.

Malaysia

I'm in Malaysia at the moment, got in yesterday mid-day, after a night + morning in Singapore (SHITAPORE!) haha
Met up with a friend from online, Alven, just chilled around town and looked at some malls, had shisha and dinner, had a beer at a beach cafe.

There's not much to do in Johor Bahru (where i am at the moment) but it's still an interesting place, I'll be checking out the Museum + Mosques soon.

The guest-house I'm staying at is cheap, reaaaaally cheap, but cool at the same time, It's inhabited by a Hakiri, the owner and his wife,
They've about 6 cats and 6 chickens (roosters woke me up this morning, at 5am, fuckers!) and i bunk with a 20 y.o swede called sasha, and a 56 y.o singaporean guy.

Sweet as.